Tuesday, August 10, 2010

I'm Not Super Mom

I tried being Super Mom once...it didn't work. I actually own a superwoman T-shirt. Sometimes I wear it to Isaac's appointments.

It took me awhile to realize that I'm just an ordinary person who just happens to be in an
extraordinary situation. Isaac had a few admits last summer with oxygen requirements up to 8-10 liters some nights. He spent 6 weeks in the hospital this past winter for pneumonia and RSV. After almost 3 years on an adrenaline rush it finally caught up with me.

Maybe I thought that God gave me a child with special health care needs because he thought I was so strong. I learned the hard way that he gave me this child so that I would lean on him for strength.

In the fall my counselor asked me what I was doing for myself. I had to think hard about that for a moment. So I started to find balance in my life.

I went out for coffee with a friend, walked the dog, lost 20 pounds. I educated myself on something other than medical stuff. I stopped feeling guilty about making time for myself when a nurse is here.

And I'm a better person, Mom, wife, friend for it.

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8 comments:

Lacey said...

Its funny that you posted this today because I have always thought that I've done a pretty good job staying sane for the last 4 years. But I'm exhausted today, and I'm wondering why I'm so tired when I don't have Jax at home to get up with. I think worrying about his health is much more draining!!

Janis said...

Good for you!!

Holly said...

Always good to go for coffee with a friend ;) I'm glad your finding balance. The beginning of this summer I felt lost and unbalanced. Things are slowly getting better. Stepping away from the computer and getting out of the house helps me. Here's to a balanced Fall!

Colton's Journey said...

my hubs made me take a vacation. I had our 3 year old with me but with other friends too. I was a the beach and away! It was nice. I didn't realize how bad I needed to get away- till I walked in the door and said to me...think he's sick...an hour later we were at the doctor's office..... Amen to coffee, walking the dog or whatever it is that is your time!!!!!

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

It's so hard to take time for ourselves! I find that if I go too long with a girls night out or something, I start getting really antsy. Now I try to go out twice a month with other Moms, and just have dinner and drinks. And I joined Weight Watchers, because I am humongous. As I slowly lose weight, I feel better already! :)

The VW's said...

Thanks for the reminder that I'm not super mom either, and that I should take some alone time for myself and to start taking care of me too!

I love your little guy! He reminds me of our son Gavin....our 3rd son just came up to me when I was looking at pictures of Isaac and said, he is so cute and he looks kind of like Gavin!

I got big smiles reading your post on Isaac's awesome hair! Too cute!

Glad to have "met" you and your sweet boy!

Trena Wanless said...

Love it!

Alicia said...

I loved this. So very true. Especially how you talk about learning that God gave you Isaac so you could learn to lean on Him for strength.

Thanks for sharing your heart.