3 Years Ago......

3 Years ago this was me. I was what you would call a proud pregnant lady. We were expecting a boy, but more importantly we were finally expecting our 2nd child. It took us 3 1/2 years of heart ache to get this far with a pregnancy. With one miscarriage after another, my husband and I were in disbelief when we made it through the first and then into the 2nd trimester. Even though I never got very big, I couldn't wait to put on those maternity clothes!

We were excited, but something deep down made us feel guarded.

What was it?

We were about to find out.

This was a 4d ultrasound picture of Isaac shortly before he was born. It looks like he's praying. Little did we know that we would need a multitude of prayers over the next 3 years. Thanks to those prayers....he is here.......3 years later. I am so thankful for everyone who has followed our journey and has kept him in your thoughts and prayers.

So tomorrow my little boy will be 3 years old.

When I found out after he was born that he was less than perfect, it was devastating. Now I can truly say that his life has changed me in more ways than I can count.

Happy Birthday sweet boy! I love your new glasses!

2 years ago

It seems like it was just yesterday....on April 13th 2007 when our 2 pound 8 ounce, 15 inch baby boy entered the world and changed our lives forever. On April 10th I went in for a routine ultrasound and to my surprise my doctor said that Isaac wasn't doing well and that he wanted to have me admitted to the hospital for a possible c-section. Even though I knew that he would be born premature, he wasn't extremely early and I knew that babies at this stage in gestation usually survived. After being admitted to the hospital my husband and I went to another ultrasound and got the shock of our lives when the hospital Doctor showed us some markers indicating a possible disorder. All I heard her say in that moment was stillborn and chromosome disorder. I couldn't tell you what happened the rest of the day. It was all such a haze. Isaac was born into the world 3 days later by c-section and hearing him cry was music to my ears! The amnio at that point had come back negative for Down Syndrome, trisomy 13 and 18. We were hopeful that maybe the Doctor was wrong and that he was going to be just fine. One week later we got a phone call. Isaac had a deletion off of chromosome 10 and later we found out he also had a duplication of chromosome 14. What does this mean we often asked? We found very little information. As a parent you want to be able to make your child better. I couldn't do that. I couldn't fix his chromosomes or know exactly what lied ahead for his future. He spent 4 months in the NICU fighting infections and struggling to eat. I had no choice but to get on me knees and pray that God would give us the strength we needed to make the day by day. And he did! In July of 2007 Isaac went back for a simple g-tube and fundo surgery and was struggling to breath after that. I didn't understand what was going on. Apparently it took the staff 2 hours to intubate him for the surgery. His airway was collapsing and he was diagnosed with tracheal malacia and tracheal stenoses. I remember signing a paper. The rest of the day was all such a haze. On August 13th 2007 we brought this little man home. He was 4 months old and only weighed 6 and 1/2 pounds. He was smaller than the average newborn! I posted some photo's mr. Isaac in the NICU and right after getting him home. You can see how huge his trach mask is on him because he was so teeny!